Thank you all for your words of encouragement! I am feeling better; just a slight moment of weakness. It does help to know that I am not the only one going through this and having problems and questions and finding it difficult to cope with it all. I go back to Mayo Clinic in two weeks and am getting an appointment set up at NJH in May. I just need to keep reminding my self that I and my doctors are doing what is best for me and my situation.