You hit the nail on the head. Sometimes I look at those handful of pills in the morning and I think , I can’t do it today. I will simply gag or throw up if I have to take one more pill. Sometimes I just put th pills in my pocket and a while later when I realize that I am walking around and can do so much more than I could a year and a half ago, I reach in my pocket , quietly utter a few choice words and take them.
I have been really depressed lately, even on meds for that, but it could be other things going on in my life and not just the NTM.